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- A CIRCLE FOR CATHARSIS
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- Introduction:
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- One of my near and dear once spent an hour in a therapist's office kicking
- an innocent throw pillow around the room and screaming out rage at his abusive
- father. At the end of the hour, he had a broken foot -- and the first
- beginnings of a healed mind.
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- But we have learned that magic works through symbols. Calling an object by
- your abuser's name and then abusing that object is sympathetic magic used for
- the purpose of cursing. To throw a curse is to project one's worst feelings out
- into the world of form, and to invoke upon oneself the inevitable karmic
- feedback.
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- It is not our way to blast the crops and sour the milk. Wiccan tradition
- and plain common sense both tell us to avoid the practice of baneful magic.
- But, as usual, it's not quite as easy as just saying no.
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- Rape and child abuse, loved ones killed by muggers or drunk drivers,
- emotional manipulation and betrayal, economic exploitation and dishonest
- office politics - people hurt and victimize other people in many different
- ways every day. We are not immune.
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- At some point in our lives, probably every single one of us will feel
- violated by some other human being. Often our feelings will be based in fact.
- Whether they are or not, however, we need and deserve a safe way to discharge
- them.
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- Symbolic baneful actions are also cathartic actions. They drain and clear
- our poisonous feelings and allow our own emotional healing to begin. If we deny
- ourselves this outlet, what happens to the grief and pain and rage?
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- If projection is bad for us, introjection is even worse. Unreleased bad
- feelings are a major source of stress. In a very real sense, stress cripples
- and kills. Ulcers, strokes, heart attacks and more are all heavily
- stress-related. A simple refusal to engage in baneful magic could easily amount
- to punishing a victim by adding serious illness to the original harm.
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- I am part of the All. "An it harm none" is about me too. Release of my
- feelings is my right.
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- At first it seems like an insoluble paradox. But the same understanding of
- magic that forbids projection of our bad feelings can open a safe channel for
- those feelings. Here's one possible form:
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- Preparation:
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- 1) Understanding
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- Think about the Alcoholics Anonymous prayer. "Grant me the serenity to
- accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can
- change, and the wisdom to know the difference." People of any religion can
- recognize the wisdom in those words. This ritual is intended to ease emotional
- pressure. I believe that is a step towards granting all three of those things
- to ourselves.
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- If your hurt is ongoing, you must take steps to stop it - leave the
- abusive relationship, begin searching for a new job, begin organizing
- politically to stop your oppression. What good this Circle does you will be
- temporary at best if you are not acting on both the magical and material planes
- to change the things you can change.
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- But some of our pain comes from old, old injuries. And some of our
- feelings are not based on fact at all. The source of those hurts cannot be
- changed, but the pain can be. This particular working is to release any bad
- feelings, not to judge them.
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- Don't worry about justice. You may be mistaken about who has hurt you, but
- nobody will be hurt by what we do here. All energy will be contained within the
- Circle. The object of this working is healing, not justice. You deserve this
- healing simply because you hurt, and even if you are mistaken.
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- Prevention and healing are human tasks; to do them is to change the things
- we can change. Justice - the evening of karmic balances - is the business of
- the Gods, and may take place across a span of many lifetimes. Karmic balance
- is a thing we cannot change.
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- 2) Set Up
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- You have some decisions to make. The first one is whether you will work
- alone or ask one or more trusted friends to witness and facilitate your
- working. Some of us can only let our feelings go in strict privacy. For others,
- the presence of people who will make sure we don't hurt ourselves or our homes
- removes a source of inhibition. And sometimes simply being heard is part of the
- release process.
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- Next, exactly what kind of symbolic action will release your feelings?
- Will kicking a throw pillow suffice, or do you need to actually make a poppet?
- Or just screaming may be enough. If you want to work with a physical symbol,
- prepare it in advance, and be sure not to use anything you will want to keep
- after the rite or ever use again.
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- Figure out whether you can either cast a Circle to include your bathroom,
- or leave a cast Circle for a period of time. This will depend on your
- particular training. If possible, have a warm scented tub waiting for you. If
- not, a basin of warm scented water and a washcloth within easy reach just
- outside of your Circle will suffice. Also, a ritual meal should be prepared and
- waiting outside of Circle, and this should include something green and growing
- - I favor sprouts - and something sweet.
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- Procedure:
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- 1) Waning moon is a good time for this Circle, and the Dark of the Moon is even
- better. Cast the Circle and invoke the Watchers in your usual manner. Call on
- the Crone, on She who weeds and prunes and disposes of the obstructive and
- unnecessary.
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- 2) Just inside the Circle, like the membrane in an eggshell, cast a grounding
- shield. One possible image for this shield would be a black absorptive chain
- link fence, supported at regular intervals by fence posts that are lightning
- rods. Whatever happens within this space will be contained and grounded.
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- 3) Make clear to yourself what wound you seek to drain. Say it out loud, even
- if you are alone. Recall what happened to you in detail and let the feelings
- grow strong.
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- 4) Now, let go of your feelings. Do whatever will help you release what is in
- you. Beat on a pillow or rip up a doll. Scream till you cry. Don't stop till
- you are emptied. Then fling the thing you used as a symbol out of your Circle.
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- 5) When you are sure you are all done, all drained, contract the shield into a
- tight ball in the center of the Circle. As it contracts, it will gather all the
- negative energy from the Circle. Ground it. Affirm that you are sending this
- energy to the fire at the heart of the Earth - to Jarnsaxe or to Pele - to be
- purified in that blast furnace and cycled to wherever strong energy is needed.
- Know that what you now let go is gone. Affirm this out loud.
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- 6) Wash or bathe in a ritual manner, feeling the last traces of your bad
- feelings dissolve away. If others are present, allow them to wash and serve
- you.
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- 7) Rest a few minutes. Feel the peace of emptiness.
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- 8) Then invoke the Maiden's energy for new beginnings. Have your ritual feast,
- and otherwise indulge your senses. Gentle and joyful music would be effective,
- and you may want to switch to a sweeter smelling incense. This is a time to
- dream dreams and plan plans. You have removed an energy drain from your life,
- now you will be able to ... ?
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- 9) Thank and dismiss whatever Beings you have called on, throughout the whole
- ritual. Close your Circle as usual. Do not do any other kinds of working or
- worship within this particular Circle.
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- Follow Through:
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- The final part of any effective magical working is "acting in accordance"
- on the material plane. By doing this, we give the magic a channel through
- which to manifest. For this working, there are three forms of follow through,
- and all are important.
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- 1) Remember that painful feelings are partly habitual. Acting in accordance
- with magic to banish such feelings requires you to stop feeding the habit.
- Don't talk about the pain with anybody until at least the second full moon
- after the working. This gives the habit a chance to fade out. As much as you
- can, eliminate the topic from your internal dialogue as well. When you notice
- yourself dwelling on the old pain, gently and firmly change the subject.
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- Thinking about action to change your life in the here and now is
- perfectly OK. The problem is reiteration of old feelings of frustration and
- helplessness that actually impede change.
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- 2) If the hurtful situation is current and ongoing, continue with any steps you
- were taking to change the things you can change. In fact, you will probably
- find you have more energy than you did before to devote to your projects.
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- 3) Be sure to use some of your newly freed emotional energy to reward
- yourself. Take time for friendship, love, and pleasure. The object of the
- exercise is to clear space for the enjoyment of life, so start right now.
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- Judy Harrow
- HPs, Proteus Coven
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